I just came to the realization that I basically wasted the last two years of my life.
I've been through some really ridiculous ups and downs over that time but two years later I'm more or less where I was for the most part in September 2008. There's some changes, obviously, but the big picture is the same. Very little of what I've done has had any longterm effect on my life so far and it all feels like it's been for nothing.
On the other hand, it feels almost like hitting the reset button on life. It's been a clusterfuck for the past two years and now I basically get a redo.
It's irritating to think that I wasted so much time, time being something that is very valuable with my goals, and irritating to think that I wasted so much energy on people and events that ultimately led to nowhere. But I guess this is my second chance.